04-04-2019 06:18 AM
04-04-2019 11:26 AM
@eudemonism @Hamsolo01 @CheerBear @Shaz51 I contacted the boy who I was close to at Uni ,almost married him, then was made apart by my father. He was initially warm, then didn’t reply when I texted him to get together with other Uni friends. He is now married with children.
I feel sharp pain. I feel very empty. I feel extremely sad. I can’t see meaning in anything. Hope these feelings will pass. Hope I will find meaningful living now my father is dead and I am in my fifties already.
Thanks for support. It really is important.
04-04-2019 11:32 AM
Deep pains can be very hard to deal with @eudemonism at least we have forum friends to help guide us along
Hey @Meowmy im sorry your feeling this pain esp after messenging someone. I can relate well to loss. Can you do something to ease how your feeling atm? Is there something that your passionate about?
04-04-2019 12:00 PM
04-04-2019 12:37 PM
Thanks for care. It’s so helpful. This separation from my Uni friends and the boy I was close to, was exactly when my mental illness started. My father became more controlling than ever, I probably was getting unwell as well, so I was swept away from the normal lives and my friends.
That took twenty five years.
I feel I have to deal with this loss, so the powerful emotions and distress don’t take me to psychosis and hospitals again.
The boy I was close to,even though caring, kind and gentle, he may had found me too smart that he wanted a more traditional woman as wife.
It is very painful at the moment. But I hope going through this will prevent unpredictable bouts of severe anxiety and depression in the future.
Thanks guys, you are so good.
04-04-2019 02:54 PM
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